Weekly Weigh In- Week 9

Weigh In Results Time:

Week: 9

Date: 5-14-16

Weight- 304.8

Weight Loss/Gain  -1.0

Grand Total Loss 24.2

Total Lost since highest weight 64.2

How I am feeling physically: Physically I am feeling ok. I think my body is starting to readjust to work life and those 5:00am wake up calls are getting a little easier. Physically I can tell a difference in my stamina. Hills that used to give me trouble are getting easier and easier. I feel confident to tackle bigger and harder walks/jogs. I have a LONG way to go but I definitely see improvements.

How I am feeling emotionally: This process is always full of highs and lows. The last two weeks have definitely been low points. In the past the 2 month point was about where this all started getting old and I started getting really tired of food having calories, writing down all of my bites, and making time to workout every day. I have resolved not to wander down that road. The weirdest thing for me this week that I struggled with is where I am at with my clothing. I am two sizes smaller than last summer (pre pregnancy). So that is two full sizes that need to be weeded out of my closet and sold. Even though in my heart I know I am not going back there it is HARD to let that stuff go because “what if” still follows me around like a shadow and it’s hard. My other issue is I am about to drop another size (woohoo) and everything looks weird on me. Current clothes are too big and the next size down is still too small. I feel like I look sloppy which is the last thing I want. It isnt a bad problem to have but it does mess with my self esteem which, in the past, has caused me to retreat from the entire process. You have to face a lot of weird ugly things with significant weight loss and this is JUST the beginning for me. I have to saddle up and get ready!

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Mother’s Day 1.0

Mother’s Day. A day that is so bitter sweet for so many people. On the one hand I am lucky and blessed to have a great mom. She is still here, healthy, beautiful, generous, hilarious and I could go on and on. She is all of the things a mom should be. Plus she wears heels like a boss!

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I am always thankful for her on Mother’s Day. BUT, to be honest, there was always a hole in my heart where I thought my child should be. Knowing that hole would be filled this year I had looked forward to Mother’s Day for weeks. The hubs and the little went out of their way to make it special for me leaving cards around the house, packing me up for a drive to Charlottesville to visit my favorite restaurant, sweet gifts, and (most importantly) LOTS of love and family time. There really are no words to express how happy this Mother’s Day was for me so I won’t ruin it by trying. But I will say Aiden has made me a better person for a million reasons. I am so lucky to be his mom.

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Weekly Weigh In – Week 8

** My apologies for the late entries. We had some domain troubles over the weekend and by troubles I mean I forgot to renew it. Ahem. We are all set now! #NewMomProblems**

 

Weigh In Results Time:

Week: 8

Date: 5-7-16

Weight- 305.8

Weight Loss/Gain  0

Grand Total Loss 23.2

Total Lost since highest weight 63.2

How I am feeling physically: Physically I am feeling fine. My first week back to work post maternity leave messed with my workout routine a bit so I don’t know that I worked as hard as I have been. I would like to use the next week to establish a new routine. Physically I am ready for more of a challenge but I am just so stinking tired by the end of the day when I have a minute to get my workout in. Time to dig deep yall!

How I am feeling emotionally: Well, my first thought on a zero loss is always “oh shit” its happening again- my weight loss has stalled forever and Ill continue to be fluffy for all of eternity. After I talked myself off that ledge I realized my body had a pretty big loss the week before AND I had been under tremendous stress during the week with getting back to work. I didnt deviate from my plan but I also tried with a little t not a big T. Being accountable for my actions and moving on.

Photo From The Week:

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